This has been a rough week, gals, physically and mentally. (I feel like I’ve said this before….LOL) I’ve done well with my eating, but let’s just say I haven’t been excited about saying no to warm, ooey, gooey brownies and having to choose an apple instead. I really wanted some brownies. And cake. And cookies. And bread. With lots of butter. And some fried chicken. And french fries. Ok, I gotta get back on track with this blog. I’m getting lost in the food zone.
I’ve also cranked up the workouts this month – FIVE TIMES a week my friends. FIVE. I’ve gotten to the point that I look forward to going to the gym. WHAAAAA??? Yeah, I know. It shocked me too. But, that’s where I’ve been and I’ve been happy about it! However, this week has been a S-T-R-U-G-G-L-E (FYI. It took me several attempts to get that typed out correctly. Those dashes were a challenge today.) I did NOT want to go to the gym. I wanted to stay home, sit on the couch, read, do puzzles or watch TV. Nevertheless, I kicked my own behind and made myself go.
Every machine seemed harder and every weight seemed a thousand times heavier.
I’ve been tired, my body hurts and I can’t seem to get enough sleep. I think my body is trying to stage a mutiny over all the visits to Planet Fitness.
As I stepped on the scale Wednesday morning to do the mid-week check in, I expected to see another pound or so gone. Boy, was I shocked when the red numbers started flashing! Up THREE POUNDS? How is that even possible? I didn’t eat the brownies, cake, cookies, bread or french fries I wanted to devour! I made the right food choices! I’ve gone to the gym! I’ve done EVERYTHING right. Why isn’t the scale reflecting all my hard work? Frustration set in and I brooded all day long. Thursday morning, I got up, went to the scale and now I’m up FOUR POUNDS.
I wanted to chuck that scale right out the front door, onto the driveway and drive my car over it a few times.
I pouted all morning. I tried to take my frustrations out on the equipment at the gym, but my body wouldn’t cooperate. I struggled to get through the cardio and weights. I was madder than a wet hen.
Now listen, I didn’t expect this journey to health to be full of rainbows, cute puppies and adorable kittens. I realized I wasn’t going to breeze through it all and come out 6 months later at my goal weight. But, sometimes, it gets frustrating when you feel like you do what is right, but don’t see the results you are expecting.
On the way home, God began to speak to me, in the patient, loving way He always does when I’m ready to go nuclear in any given situation. Galatians 6:9 tells us that we should not become weary in doing good because in the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we don’t give up. I believe this applies not just in doing good towards others, but also towards ourselves. He showed me that there have been many times in my walk with Him that I’ve done the right thing, said the right thing and prayed the right thing, but didn’t see the results I expected when I expected them. It came in HIS time, when it would be most beneficial for me.
“I think the enemy just hovers and waits for these times and pounces the moment he senses our frustrations.”
It’s his job to get us to doubt God. He uses whatever he can to make us second-guess the verity of the Word. He told me that even though I haven’t seen the change in the numbers on the scale, there WERE changes happening in my body. Those would be revealed when it was time. I don’t know what the scale is going to say Friday morning, but all I know is this: if it’s not what I am expecting, it’s going to be ok! I KNOW that change is happening, whether it’s visible or not.
I want you to remember this:
“Don’t get weary when you step on the scale and don’t see the numbers going down. It’s going to go down eventually.”
There are things changing inside that might not be visible on the outside just yet. But, it’s going to go down. Trust that. The same goes for you spiritually. If you don’t see any change, but you are doing the right things.
DON’T GIVE UP.
Keep praying, keep reading, keep fasting! Be faithful in doing what you know to do and there will be a harvest to reap! God will reward us for obeying His Word. So,
DON’T GIVE UP!
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XOXO Kellie
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